Hmm...

Is life reli tt miserable? mishaps happen every time, disaster behold, crimes filled the streets... NOT a single day of peace... not a single day feeling safe

Life is reli miserable to me... i came to the school with top results but... i din even know where i stand, i couldn't believe it i won my rival 1 mark yet the gap was so superb during nchs, sad :(
or maybe even worse?............ am i reli that stupid, i did everything a student suppose to do, follow those ppl who love study but not those who did not like to study...yes, i avoided the boys alot...indeed i only befriended with those quiet quiet love study or with good results one... secondly, i spend over 200 dollars on assessment books and tio scolded by parents why didn't i hav anymore $$ for saving in bank, i reli was upset... i spam my personal diary...

U see me as a happy-go-lucky person who has no troubles, a person who talks to you jubilantly, a person who excels well in science, a person who helps you alot...SO? i did those to really comfort myself from this harsh life, i reli wanted to throw myself into an abyss or sink myself into morass...my mind is in a whirl a whril far worse than tonardo... i'm really couldn't stand it...relax i hav not tot of suicide....unless i'm driven to the point of insanity...thats terrible indeed.... i did many sins, well everybody do...but i still didn't believe god and maybe thats my downfall....

IS GOD REALLY TRUE?IF HE LOVES EVERYONE WHY IS THERE SUFFERINGS? WHERE IS THERE DISASTERS, INCIDENTS THAT CAUSE SUICIDAL?? ALL THESE ARE MY HYPOTHESIS TO PROVE HE IS FAKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!he brought me to another lifetime of sufferings and hardships... god i'm 14 not 41
GOD YOU ARE BIESTAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i might to reprudent but tis are my opinion i sincerely apologise to christtians and chatolics if i had offended you somehow...

Do i have to say the mantra: AMEN everyday tills he REMOVE ME FROM THIS WORLD???????????????????DAMMIT!!!!!!!!!!

DO YOU KNOW HOW MISERABLE IT IS? WHAT FOR U PRAY BEFORE U EAT?WHAT FOR YOU PRAY TO HIM?WHAT FOR? HE WOULD SOON DRAG U INTO THE WORLD OF PAIN AND SUFFERINGS?WHY?DID HE SICK OF LISTENING TO THE SAME PRAYRES?





fact: actually god is based on a myth...scientists couldn't prove if god were real...LOL maybe the temple or church an $$ as''tian xia you''